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\_ | _/ you're still up.
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\_|_/ it's ok to be scared! i'm a just little girl.
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\ / you can't do that here.
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\ / it'll be just like gagging on a man's dick.
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| so you don't need to throw up.
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| you should ask travis what to do.
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| the man picking me up from the airport.
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\ / i want a ride from the airport.
/ \ wouldn't you be scared if you didn't have a ride from the airport?
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\ / ok, i told travis i'm nauseous;
(/\) he told me i should have a smoothie.
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\_|_/ isn't this nice?
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\_ | _/ ask the nice man over there where your gate is.
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\_|_/ you are a child.
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\ / i like how he smiled at me.
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\ / isn't it great to be a little girl?
/ \ men will always make you feel better.
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| why?
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| it's not like he's going to have sex with me.
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| i guess, but you have control over that, right?
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\ / is he a predator?
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\ / but you’re not, and he’s seen you, not me.
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\_|_/ oh my god, it’s from him.
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(turbulence worsens)
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\_ | _/ that wasn't cute.
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(vomits again)
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\_|_/ ugh.
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\ / you don't even have a spirit.
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(heaves over bag)
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\ / none of it got in my mask.
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| yeah, no thanks to you, indulgent dipshit.
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| yeah, but it was nice though.
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| i don’t know.
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\ / i don’t know!
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\ / you’re not getting picked up by the bus.
(/\) it’s filled with other people’s germs. and i’ll look stupid.
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\_|_/ he likes your body. isn’t that nice?
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\_ | _/ what are you implying?
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\_|_/ that’s not true, he’s picking me up from the airport.
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\ / stop saying that!
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\ / i was.
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| it doesn’t matter now, what am i supposed to do now?
/ \ he’s already on his way and you’ve thrown up.
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| i can’t cancel now, that would be rude.
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| you don’t need to do anything.
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\ / he’s safe. just stay quiet, ok?
/ \ if you cause a scene you might get hit or hurt.
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\ / text him that you’re about to land.
(/\) tell him what i’m wearing; everyone here looks like me.
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\_|_/ yeah, well, he’s probably a little racist.
(/ \) plus he’s only seen you online.
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\_ | _/ idk i can’t look, i’m on my phone.
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\_|_/ give him a hug.
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\ / get in his car.
(/\) “hi, how was your day?”
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| “i’m still a little nauseous.”
/ \ he'll get you something to eat.
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| he’s telling you he wants you to eat.
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\ / “you think technology that lets you move
| objects with your mind is going to be as revolutionary
/ \ as the internet?”
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\ / yeah kinda lol
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\_|_/ oh fuck
(/ \) “how so?”
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\_ | _/ “i think i want to lie in bed.”
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\_|_/ “let me know when you get home safe.”
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\ / that’s not going to work.
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| just go to sleep, ok? i’ll figure it out.
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| i’ll be too pretty to throw up.
| he texted me.
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| i know.
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\ / objects don’t have feelings.
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\_|_/ fine! just go to sleep.
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\_ | _/ i’m going to call her and tell her what
(_/ \_) happened and ask her what to do.
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\_|_/ she says to block him.
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\ / no, you haven’t. i blocked him. i feel better.
(/\)
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\ / she’s showing me her crochet projects. they’re cute.
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| be nice!
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| ok.
| “thank you for talking with me.
| i think i need to sleep now. goodnight.”
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walking through an airport terrified |
because other people's germs could infect my body. |
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i need to throw up. |
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ok, well, i’m in the bathroom now leaning \ /
over a toilet and nothing is happening. / \
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what? i’m leaving. \ /
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no, i do. \_|_/
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who the fuck is travis? \_ | _/
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what? why? \_|_/
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i guess. \ /
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a smoothie sounds great. \ /
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i don’t feel better. |
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i’ll look like a child. |
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i am a child. |
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i like that i know where i am. \ /
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men make me feel horrible. \ /
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because you do shit like let them pick you up \_|_/
from the airport and act like you’re prey. (/ \)
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yeah, but he wants to. \_ | _/
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this turbulence is awful. \_|_/
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you’re a child. \ /
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i didn’t agree for him to pick me up from the airport. \ /
look, a text. / \
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fuck |
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(vomits)
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i look like an animal. |
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this feels spiritual. |
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(vomits again)
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if you had a body you'd know how i feel. \ /
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thank god, as if the snot and tears weren't enough. \ /
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you were the one who wanted me to! ( \ / )
i’m not the one who started fantasizing \_|_/
about that girl and crying about it! (/ \)
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yeah whatever, why do i still feel like shit? \_ | _/
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stop lying, asshole. \_|_/
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you’re not getting picked up by that guy. \ /
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ugh. \ /
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he likes your body. i hate mine. |
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that he just wants to have sex with you. |
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he’s picking you up from the airport. |
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you were going to have sex with him. \ /
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i stopped you. \ /
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can’t you call an uber? \_|_/
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i don’t know what i can do in his car. \_ | _/
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how are you going to stay safe? \_|_/
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ok. \ /
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that’s sweet, i like looking like everyone. \ /
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is that him? |
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oh my god it’s him. can’t you order an uber? |
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i did, now what? |
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i feel like shit. \ /
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i can’t eat in front of him. \ /
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that’s nice. \_|_/
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haha, that’s funny. \_ | _/
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he thinks you’re making fun of him. \_|_/
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i want to lie down. the bed is right there. \ | /
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don’t invite him. \ /
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jesus that was horrible. i think i need to throw up again. \ /
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what is? |
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with what? i can’t throw up in my sleep. |
isn’t that how people die? |
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he’s making you feel bad for not having sex with him. |
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this sucks. you make me an object. \ /
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i have feelings! \ /
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look, a pretty girl texted you. \_|_/
something to distract yourself with. (/ \)
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god, girls make me nervous. \_ | _/
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what, like i’ve been saying? \_|_/
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me too. \ /
(/\)
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so cute they’re making me nauseous again. \ /
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you’re good at that, you do it. i’m sleeping. |
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goodnight. |
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