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(  \ /  )
 \_ | _/  you're still up.
 (_/ \_)
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( \ / )
 \_|_/    it's ok to be scared! i'm a just little girl.
 (/ \)
    
(\  /)
 \  /     you can't do that here.
 (/\)
    
(\ /)
 \ /      it'll be just like gagging on a man's dick.
 / \

\ /
 |        so you don't need to throw up.
/ \

 |
 |        you should ask travis what to do. 
 | 

\ /
 |        the man picking me up from the airport.
/ \
    
(\ /)
 \ /      i want a ride from the airport.
 / \      wouldn't you be scared if you didn't have a ride from the airport?
    
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 \  /     ok, i told travis i'm nauseous;
 (/\)     he told me i should have a smoothie.
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( \ / )
 \_|_/    isn't this nice?   
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(  \ /  )
 \_ | _/  ask the nice man over there where your gate is.
 (_/ \_)
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( \ / )
 \_|_/    you are a child.
 (/ \)
    
(\  /)
 \  /     i like how he smiled at me.
 (/\)
    
(\ /)
 \ /      isn't it great to be a little girl?
 / \      men will always make you feel better.

\ /
 |        why?
/ \

 |
 |        it's not like he's going to have sex with me.
 | 

\ /
 |        i guess, but you have control over that, right?
/ \
    
(\ /)
 \ /      is he a predator?
 / \      
    
(\  /)
 \  /     but you’re not, and he’s seen you, not me.
 (/\)     
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( \ / )
 \_|_/    oh my god, it’s from him. 
 (/ \)
 
(turbulence worsens)
__ __ ( \ / ) \_ | _/ that wasn't cute. (_/ \_)
(vomits again)
_ _ ( \ / ) \_|_/ ugh. (/ \) (\ /) \ / you don't even have a spirit. (/\)
(heaves over bag)
(\ /) \ / none of it got in my mask. / \ \ / | yeah, no thanks to you, indulgent dipshit. / \ | | yeah, but it was nice though. | \ / | i don’t know. / \ (\ /) \ / i don’t know! / \ (\ /) \ / you’re not getting picked up by the bus. (/\) it’s filled with other people’s germs. and i’ll look stupid. _ _ ( \ / ) \_|_/ he likes your body. isn’t that nice? (/ \) __ __ ( \ / ) \_ | _/ what are you implying? (_/ \_) _ _ ( \ / ) \_|_/ that’s not true, he’s picking me up from the airport. (/ \) (\ /) \ / stop saying that! (/\) (\ /) \ / i was. / \ \ / | it doesn’t matter now, what am i supposed to do now? / \ he’s already on his way and you’ve thrown up. | | i can’t cancel now, that would be rude. | \ / | you don’t need to do anything. / \ (\ /) \ / he’s safe. just stay quiet, ok? / \ if you cause a scene you might get hit or hurt. (\ /) \ / text him that you’re about to land. (/\) tell him what i’m wearing; everyone here looks like me. _ _ ( \ / ) \_|_/ yeah, well, he’s probably a little racist. (/ \) plus he’s only seen you online. __ __ ( \ / ) \_ | _/ idk i can’t look, i’m on my phone. (_/ \_) _ _ ( \ / ) \_|_/ give him a hug. (/ \) (\ /) \ / get in his car. (/\) “hi, how was your day?” \ / | “i’m still a little nauseous.” / \ he'll get you something to eat. | | he’s telling you he wants you to eat. | \ / “you think technology that lets you move | objects with your mind is going to be as revolutionary / \ as the internet?” (\ /) \ / yeah kinda lol (/\) _ _ ( \ / ) \_|_/ oh fuck (/ \) “how so?” __ __ ( \ / ) \_ | _/ “i think i want to lie in bed.” (_/ \_) _ _ ( \ / ) \_|_/ “let me know when you get home safe.” (/ \) (\ /) \ / that’s not going to work. (/\) \ / | just go to sleep, ok? i’ll figure it out. / \ | | i’ll be too pretty to throw up. | he texted me. \ / | i know. / \ (\ /) \ / objects don’t have feelings. (/\) _ _ ( \ / ) \_|_/ fine! just go to sleep. (/ \) __ __ ( \ / ) \_ | _/ i’m going to call her and tell her what (_/ \_) happened and ask her what to do. _ _ ( \ / ) \_|_/ she says to block him. (/ \) (\ /) \ / no, you haven’t. i blocked him. i feel better. (/\) (\ /) \ / she’s showing me her crochet projects. they’re cute. / \ \ / | be nice! / \ | ok. | “thank you for talking with me. | i think i need to sleep now. goodnight.” .

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walking through an airport terrified        | 
because other people's germs could infect my body.       | 

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i need to throw up.        | 
/ \
    
(\ /)
ok, well, i’m in the bathroom now leaning      \ / 
over a toilet and nothing is happening.     / \ 
    
(\  /)
what? i’m leaving.     \  / 
 (/\) 
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no, i do.    \_|_/ 
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(  \ /  )
who the fuck is travis?  \_ | _/ 
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( \ / )
what? why?    \_|_/ 
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i guess.     \  / 
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a smoothie sounds great.      \ / 
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i don’t feel better.        | 
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i’ll look like a child.        | 
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i am a child.        | 
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i like that i know where i am.      \ / 
/ \ 
    
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men make me feel horrible.     \  / 
 (/\) 
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( \ / )
because you do shit like let them pick you up     \_|_/ 
from the airport and act like you’re prey.    (/ \) 
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(  \ /  )
yeah, but he wants to.  \_ | _/ 
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( \ / )
this turbulence is awful.    \_|_/ 
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you’re a child.     \  / 
 (/\) 
    
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i didn’t agree for him to pick me up from the airport.     \ / 
 look, a text.     / \ 

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fuck        | 
/ \

 
(vomits)
|  i look like an animal. |  |  \ / this feels spiritual. |  / \
(vomits again)
(\ /) if you had a body you'd know how i feel. \ /  / \  (\ /) thank god, as if the snot and tears weren't enough. \ /  (/\)  _ _  you were the one who wanted me to! ( \ / ) i’m not the one who started fantasizing \_|_/  about that girl and crying about it! (/ \)  __ __  ( \ / ) yeah whatever, why do i still feel like shit? \_ | _/  (_/ \_)  _ _  ( \ / ) stop lying, asshole. \_|_/  (/ \)  (\ /) you’re not getting picked up by that guy. \ /  (/\)  (\ /) ugh. \ /  / \  \ / he likes your body. i hate mine. |  / \ |  that he just wants to have sex with you. |  |  \ / he’s picking you up from the airport. |  / \ (\ /) you were going to have sex with him. \ /  / \  (\ /) i stopped you. \ /  (/\)  _ _  ( \ / ) can’t you call an uber? \_|_/  (/ \)  __ __  ( \ / ) i don’t know what i can do in his car. \_ | _/  (_/ \_)  _ _  ( \ / ) how are you going to stay safe? \_|_/  (/ \)  (\ /) ok. \ /  (/\)  (\ /) that’s sweet, i like looking like everyone. \ /  / \  \ / is that him? |  / \ |  oh my god it’s him. can’t you order an uber? |  |  \ / i did, now what? |  / \ (\ /) i feel like shit. \ /  / \  (\ /) i can’t eat in front of him. \ /  (/\)  _ _  ( \ / ) that’s nice. \_|_/  (/ \)  __ __  ( \ / ) haha, that’s funny. \_ | _/  (_/ \_)  _ _  ( \ / ) he thinks you’re making fun of him. \_|_/  (/ \)  ( \ / ) i want to lie down. the bed is right there. \ | /  (/ \)  (\ /) don’t invite him. \ /  (/\)  (\ /) jesus that was horrible. i think i need to throw up again. \ /  / \  \ / what is? |  / \ |  with what? i can’t throw up in my sleep. |  isn’t that how people die? |  \ / he’s making you feel bad for not having sex with him. |  / \ (\ /) this sucks. you make me an object. \ /  / \  (\ /) i have feelings! \ /  (/\)  _ _  ( \ / ) look, a pretty girl texted you. \_|_/  something to distract yourself with. (/ \)  __ __  ( \ / ) god, girls make me nervous. \_ | _/  (_/ \_)  _ _  ( \ / ) what, like i’ve been saying? \_|_/  (/ \)  (\ /) me too. \ /  (/\)  (\ /) so cute they’re making me nauseous again. \ /  / \  \ / you’re good at that, you do it. i’m sleeping. |  / \ |  goodnight. |  |  .